Sigh, I know I have been in abstentia. Life just does not allow me to control it. I only pretend to exist behind the curtain and push the buttons. I thought about breaking up with you permanently. Some small part of me said, oh no it is not time to let you go. How you tolerate the neglect I certainly don't understand.
I have been experiencing overwhelm not in a bad way necessarily...suffering from a bit of post vacation blues. I miss the ocean. Specifically, I miss the Pacific Ocean! The hubster and I took a road trip. It was EPIC! We traveled across our beautiful country, enjoyed about ninety percent of the Pacific coast and knocked out some important destinations such as Mt. Rainier. Some of you are probably thinking here she goes again...I don't want to think of myself as being the person that holds you captive looking at 999 slides and talks about nothing but the EPIC trip. It was so very meaningful on so many levels. I am often asked what was the most beautiful or my favorite. It was all good, really. There may be a place or two we would not put on the next list. There may have been a time or two where someone may have threatened to jump ship or car as the case may be and fly home. And someone may have been overwhelmed by being in a car with an extrovert for that long. We saw and did everything from the sacred, sublime to the ridiculous. Many times, I absolutely knew I was standing on Hallowed Ground. I had the image or thought of everyone and everything that led me to this beautiful country and becoming a citizen at the tender age of six. I was meant to be here in this day and at this time I have no doubt. I had glimpses of Heaven. I imagine my first glimpse of the Pacific Ocean was much the same as my first glimpse of a new country as a child open to all possibilities. I am training my brain to continue to believe in unlimited possibilities.